The Angry side of Dizzmal

So I've been told that I have been overy angery lately,Have I? I'm more aggravated that I remember I was on Hades. Maybe I'll blame the server. I've lost more friends than I would like to count due to them quitting in the past year. Maybe I'll blame them quitting, or my lack of ability to be able to quit. More people seem to piss me off with their petty BS or their trying to MPK the good members of SoV.

 I'm not sure if my anger is starting to affect the people in SoV yet or not, But we did have one of the crappy runs than I can remember. It wasn't a wipe, but it was damn close to it on both Kirin runs. Bad thing was, I can't put my finger on it why it went so bad. I'll chalk it up to maybe just one of those days. Exellence being there during our shitty ass run didn't help either. I'm sure that made a certain someone just feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Either way, we got it done, and got on with our lives. Tonight we will have a rematch with Kirin Zerg style to make me feel better about the whole thing.

Tuesday Aristocrats had Dynamis Xarc, and I must say, we didn't start off with the way we wanted to, but we sure as hell finished strong. Caldar became out new TH4 Thf, with our latest set of AAs that dropped. That was my first run as Blm in Xarc.Ah I'm not sure which I die more on, Blm or Drk in that zone. Meh still a good run none-the-less.

I covered SoV's thursday run above so I'll move straight on to Friday, where I thought I would be cool as hell and dualbox me and OC during some ISNMs. Well that didn't work out well. Although we cleared and people got drops, there was some death involved. Note to self, learn more about Brd. In the end I got a Khroma ore, so I was happy panda.

Saturday I pretty much just skilled up and was a tad lazy. I ran into my old friends Theshadow and Ladymidnight, the leaders of Across and the people that made me who I am today. I was still a lowley War making way though the start of this game. They let me into their old LS and I pretty much wouldn't leave even after they started Across. Their trio partner, GodofDeath, told them that I was so loyal that I'd stay in that shell even if no one else was on. Sure enough the next time he logged on, I was chillin in there all by my lonesome. That started my membership of Across. From there I have grown and moved on, but Across will always be my home. Even though Shadow and lady try to kill me every chance they get. Lol, the memories I've had.

Aristocrats had a great run in San'doria as we cleared almost the entire zone of mobs. Good start for the month on payouts.^^

Sunday I joined NBA with some Tinnin action. I was happy because it was the first time I got to tank, well other than when I would nuke and it would turn to me and make me go splat.The first run, Neo and I had no problems till the end when the fucker cursed me then hit me right after. Result = splat. Oh well, it was dead shortley after. The second run was alot more death on my part. It seems like every time I switched over to Brd(I was dualwielding OC for elegy.) It seemed like I got pwned. Oh well, no biggy. On the third run I wasn't paying attention on Brd as I did the second round, so I didn't have any deaths. For the most part all the fights went smooth. I had a good time, that's all that matters.

I don't know, am I that angry? I wonder if after 6-7 years of playing this game, it might finally be time for me to take a long term break. It's hard to say at this point. The main reason I don't think it's a possiblity is because a lot of people depend on me. I think every time I don't show up, I disappoint someone and I'm not sure if I'm just OCD about it or somthing, but I can't stand that. Oh well, I've played this long with out taking a break, I'm sure I'll work though it sooner or later.